I too, Fuck up

I am an average human, who often makes mistakes. I'll be the one to say it here. There are times I don't follow through with my own word. Many times that I fall back into old habits. There are times that I make interesting choices, that maybe don't seem in alignment with who I want to be.

But lets look in between the lines of who I want to be and who I am today. In between those lines are the truth of who you are. And it's in the in between where learning to love and accept the person that you actually are, can get you closer to who you want to become.

But let's be real honest right now. There are a lot of outside influences that cause you to feel pressure to show up a certain way. It could be your job, social media, your family, your friends, your community. Shit, it could be coming from every angle. And this pressure we create within ourselves probably has very little room to fuck up.

We may need to look like we've got it all down, and all figured out. And the moment you fuck up, your armor goes up, you bask in the shame and disassociate from the reality that you too fuck up. On social media we often only see the good from everyone. It's a disguise to the real truth behind each person. We only want to show those good moments to the world, because we want to seem like we've got it all figured out.

But it's just all a lie, if you can't accept that you too fuck up. You too, make mistakes and choices that aren't in alignment with who you want to be. And the only way through dealing with and accepting the fact that you too make mistakes, is to forgive yourslef. Oooof, thats a tough one, have you ever learned to forgive yourself?

Honestly, I find it more exhausting trying to show up for everyone else how I think they want to see me. But I too am learning that its through these imperfections that show more of who I am. And that its okay. That I don't have it all figured out. And when I think I do life comes through showing me that I actually don't know shit. And when you make a mistake, you learn to forgive yourself. And you keep on going. Giving yourself another shot.

Perfectly, imperfect.

With love,

Jay